Confused and scared

Ok, basically I had a F/O in 2022- mid 2023, and I kind of dropped him after Christmas because I fell out of a relationship with some dude, then I got a new F/O which is my current one, and I love this F/O dearly, I have so much merch for him and he’s plastered everywhere. I LOVE HIM. But the issue is I just had another fallout of a relationship.. and now I’m paranoid that I’ll stop loving this F/O as well.

But I really love him, like I love him so much and I don’t want to emotionally drop him like I did with my last one, I just think the whole relationship thing was the cause of me not liking my last F/O anymore (and harassment from the fandom.) like I said, I don’t want to leave this one.

Can I have some reassurance? Or ways I can connect with my F/O better just in case, I seek him for comfort all the time.