Being a femboy has kinda ruined my mental health

So for context I've only been a femboy since early December last year, and since then my mental health has plummeted. A lot of it is correlation rather than causation, but my obsession with my body has definitely increased ever since I became one. I had been sorta satisfied with my appearance before but now I'm just constantly trying to force my body to fit into the stereotypical femboy body type. Except I literally can't get there no matter how hard I keep trying, my body just isn't built like that and it's destroying my mental. Like I absolutely love being a femboy, it makes me happy when I'm dressed up and the community is amazing and there's just so many benefits but it is literally destroying me to keep on chasing after this body goal that I can't seem to drop.