It’s interesting how deconverting affects people differently
For me it felt like freedom and a huge relief/weight lifted
No more worrying about all this stuff and I can just enjoy life
Whereas I had a friend who also deconverted at the same time
For him he became depressed because he felt he had no purpose/goal anymore and life was meaningless
Eventually he ended up returning to the faith
I find it interesting that the experiences can be so different