Just wanted an opinion on my situation

First post here!

I have been Christian for 10 years. It was pretty big. But I deconverted. Thank you God.

The problem is my church keeps looking for me. This is about the second time I try to leave my church. Every time they blow up my phone, and even come to my house to look for me.

Part of is my fault: I ghosted them and I honestly don’t like them.

What they think is love, is peer pressure into something I don’t want.

“They probably want an explanation”. Should I tell them that I hate them, their religion, their God, and I would rather be dead than to praise God together again? It seems hurtful.

Idk what do you guys think. :(

Tl;dr: I left church, but church doesn’t want me to leave and it’s annoying.