am i selfish ?

born in a typical middle class indian family

parents forced to become me an engineer

worked for 4 months a in a corporate and it was a soul sucking experinece

my parents pay for my school college fees , give me best nutrition

now they are demanding there money back

i left my job and now doing volunteering as a gardener in himachal

what should i do now ?'

i calculate it will take atleast 8 years to payback the money

but i dont want to be part of corporate again

i send osho asstravakra gita book to read

but they say every other child is giving there parents money , car , gold chain

and you are us a books ( i can only afford books right now )

now what should i do ?