Having this phobia is so embarrassing

I just keep beating myself up about how stupid it is for me to be afraid of something that’s normal. I think I’m starting to have acid reflux a lot more now, and the symptoms of having it is not pleasant. It’s been times where it feels like something is coming back up in my throat and it makes me panic.

I just took a quick nap, and I got woken up from it because of that feeling in my throat. My heart was beating so fast and I got so shaky because I thought I was gonna tu. I know other people who can just tu with ease and be fine, but when it comes to me I’ll have a full blown panic attack, and I just don’t understand 😓 I’m still kinda shaken up from it and it happened 30 mins ago. I just wish I can get better….