i left 5 days ago and now i’m pregnant

After three years of suffering, I finally found the courage to leave my partner. I moved everything out while he was at work and got out of our apartment. The guilt and heartbreak have been overwhelming since then, and I’ve been struggling with a constant sick feeling in my heart.

Yesterday, I took a pregnancy test, feeling torn and unsure. I told myself that if it was positive, it would be a sign to go back to him. To my shock, the test came back positive. I’m devastated.

I know my choice is to go through with an abortion, but now I’m grappling with the decision of contacting him and the emotional turmoil of wondering if I’ve made the wrong choice. For the past few days, I’ve convinced myself that maybe he really was my soulmate, despite everything we went through. I’m unsure if I’m just spiraling or if there’s some truth to this feeling.

I’m really lost right now and could use any advice, especially from anyone who’s been in a similar situation