i always fail

ive had type 2 diabetes since i was 11…i am 23, ive never had it controlled and i meed to grab this disease but its head and control it! ive never taken it seriously and i need to! for myself and my love ones but i never do. i start to and give it halfway through it and i need some advice on how to keep myself motivated…i feel like the reason why i give up is i dnt see any results so i just stop!!! im on metphormin and lantis insulin..