fuck my life

my life is a total fucking plane crash. im failing school like a mf, my fam is all disapointed in me, im depressed, addicted, and over this shit.

my whole life ive been bullied and made fun of for being a gay mexican, my dad is dead, im dead to my mom, i cut myself, im addicted to cocaine and i cant go on anymore.

ive tried to quit but i keep relapsing and ruining myself. i have 50+ overdue fucking assignments due by the 1st and if i dont get them done god knows what my family will do to me.(im sorry if this is REALLY fucking badly written cause its 1 am rn). if i dont get those assignments done and relapse again im blowing my brains out