I want to stop feeling

I don’t want to feel emotions anymore. I really just want to go numb. Completely numb. I don’t care that it’s “part of being human” and shit like that, I just don’t want to feel anymore. My thoughts and emotions have only ever served to hurt me and I can’t seem to possibly escape these miserable feelings. I go to therapy, I take medications, I talk to friends and family, and do my best to maintain healthy routines and engage in my passions which are all great but they simply don’t get rid of the pit of despair that remains inside of me. Nothing makes me feel okay. I feel as though I was created without pleasure receptors in my brain. I want to become completely numb to everything. I wish I was a robot. A cold, unfeeling machine. What am I supposed to do?