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What’s up yall, it’s my girl and Is 7th anniversary tomorrow. Or it would have been. She’s at her mom’s tonight and I’m home alone. This shit sucks I can’t lie. Been crying so long now. My tax refund got accepted today so I’m hoping it gets accepted asap so I can take us out to atleast have a nice night, or get her something special. I can’t lie I’m struggling bad. I’ve prayed, I’ve talked to my family tonight and it doesn’t seem to get easier. Drinking currently which feels it makes it worse. Anything would help, even just conversation. Love Breaking bad, BCS. Love the Broncos or NFL in general. Star Wars, anime, anything. Fuck it’s so hard. And I call myself a Christian and I believe more than anything in my life but here I am struggling. I’m such a pathetic joke, but what’s new. Maybe this is why she left me.