Angry Dementia Side

Has anyone else dealt with their loved one being EXTREMELY angry then extremely apologetic? My grandma has dementia and this has been a complete fucking nightmare. Today she told me that she wishes I would die, I’m a fat ass, and she hopes she never sees me again. Also wished death upon my parents. This is my dad’s mom and 30 years ago my aunt died of cancer… my grandma said today “your dad should of been the one to die instead of my daughter, I hate him he is the devil!”.

Here’s the kicker…. I grew up with her saying stuff like this about my parents. But this is AMPLIFIED! It is so goddamn ignorant I can’t even keep my composure and I end up yelling back. I can’t help it. My heart breaks for my parents because they are doing everything to make her and my pap comfortable and she doesn’t care. No matter what happens she will say these things about them. She’s never said something like this about me or my siblings but always about my parents (HER OWN SON!)

If I were to see her a couple days from now or a week and ask her if she remembers what she said to me and told her, she would break down and cry and say she’s sorry. I don’t know. It’s like I am starting to hate and resent her but I feel bad because I know she has this disease but at the same time she always said this kind of stuff while I was growing up and now it’s juat even more ignorant.

If she kills my dad from stressing him out so bad when I am so young I will never forgive her.