Feels like this is forever 22M

After three years of having this ruin my life with more than 40 symptoms and losing all I had to this , I feel there’s no way out other than death .

I fight every single day to feel somewhat okay and all I get is defeat feels like it’s a constant battle with constant defeat no way to win no matter how hard I try ( some of you may relate).

I got sick at 19 I was your average university student athelte and now I’m 22 with nothing . Literally nothing . Living with my parents who by the way don’t understand my illness and make this 10x more difficult because of this debilitating disease . Life is pretty much over . I lost friends and family and I’m pretty much by myself . No one gives a fuck .