Need your guidance for a better masculine man....

I grew up with just my mom since my dad passed away. During my teenage years, I mostly stayed at home and felt too shy to go out.

Here is my list that I have faced such issues.

1. I'm mostly caught up in arguments, and I've lost many friends because of my behavior issues and fights.

2. I lack confidence, and when someone picks a fight with me, instead of standing up, I become submissive. Even though I'm good with words, I try to avoid confrontations.

3. I've had arguments with girls too, and some have told me I need to learn how to talk to them. When I try to charm them, they often act cold or think I'm creepy.

4. I struggle to say no. Even when I do, I worry about hurting others' feelings, especially given my history of fights.

5. In crowded places, I hesitate to approach anyone because I fear being judged or labeled a creep if I do anything.

6. I want to be fearless and stick to my decisions without backing down due to fear.

7. I'm afraid to ask for someone's number or Instagram because I worry they'll misunderstand my intentions, sometimes thinking it's sexual, but mostly because I want to expand my social circle.

8. I tend to overshare personal information, which leads to teasing from others.

9. I often stay silent in the moment and later regret not speaking up or saying something different.

10. I have anger issues that sometimes get out of control.

11. When girls show interest in me, but then act cold or unresponsive when I ask for their contact information, I wonder if it's because I appear weak or indecisive.

12. I'm always in a hurry and believe I must always be on time, fearing I'll miss out on something if I'm late.

13. I tend to overthink and always expect the worst to happen.