I feel like a Chinese imposter

I know a couple of other people who have shared this sentiment. I recently switch my middle and last name so that my last name is my Chinese last name. (Given to me by the orphanage, not parental).

My parents just took Bao cause it was the last character in my name, but technically QiChun would have been my last name. It's not the end of the world but sometimes I get self conscious.

On top of that though I try to partake in holidays and cook recipes I can find online from Chinese families. I feel like food and hosting are how I show appreciation the most but sometimes I feel like I'm "appropriating" because I wasn't raised in the culture.

I am planning on proposing soon and I want to wear a red and gold wedding suit with my girlfriend wearing a red and gold dress, but for some reason again I feel like I havent "earned" the right. My girlfriend is really in touch with her heritage and culture and I feel like I'm just floating.