work woes

currently working an apprenticeship in aircraft maintenance. looking for a way out because its not my thing, and i don't feel like i'm really contributing anything to world working for a commercial airline. all they do is pollute and suck up money in anyway that they can. i work permanent nights. someone recently told me though that just by being a woman working there i am contributing to the cause of women in trades, who only make up about 2% of the workforce here. but what does that actually mean when i'm constantly having to hear mysogonistic jokes and other sexist sentiment, and homophobia and transphobia at work? is it really feminism to endure working permanent nightshift for 3 more years to be some kind of role model in the future for women who might also want to work there? its not even like my company actively tries to hire women anyways. i'm not doing anything myself to change this culture because i'm fucking scared of talking back to men twice my age height and weight about why their transphobic jokes are offensive to me, who has a trans partner. i'm so burnt out and no one seems to be able to figure out how to actually help me. i'm terrified to leave but can't stand staying. no matter how butch or masculine i present i feel like i'm still seen as lesser to everyone else there just because i'm still a woman edit- thanks for everyone's words, i've put in my resignation now. i knew i was going to quit, just needed the ecouragement and a bit more time.