Today is a very hard one for me.

It has been a long time now, over 5 years, and our Brady Bunch has become free on both sides... finally. Probably ⁶soè hard because somewhere in my mind, today would have been the perfect day to make to truly make it official, today was the day I wanted to remember each and every year, but here I am, still the girlfriend. It ǰwas a beautifřul mo o too, absolutely beautiful. I am not saying I haven't made my own mistakes, I have, but today, today mùy heart hurts and today I am sadder than I have been in a very lon time.

. CLARIFICATION: I have made so many mistakes in my relationship, I am here in hopes to try and fix my mistakes? if possible, I will keep fighting to fix what I can until the day it is truly too late. I am here to try and prevent the thing I fear the most, a true ending of US. How do I apologize so he really hears me, how do I really show him how hard I am trying? If I could have chosen a wedding day, it would have been yesterday 10/12/2024. Now I would settle for any day, just spending my life with him the way we were would be more than enough.