Are you still Christian?

I'm conflicted. I know that Christianity was a way to justify the actions of slavery toward black people, I know that it's often used as a weapon of hate.

But sometimes I can't help but think about it someone is still watching. Everything that going on. Everything is so hard right now man. It's makes me want to cry, so do you believe in God? Go you still pray.

I was listening to a choir and I don't know man I just momentarily felt free to feel and let it go.

Edit: If not how do you get what's going on right now? What do you rely on