Idk if I can live alone anymore

Does anyone else have a hard time living alone? When I’m really down I go and stay with my family for days or weeks at a time. When I return home it can be almost triggering. The isolation seems to make me spiral. My bipolar symptoms I’ve felt have gotten worse with age. I find it harder living alone and maintaining a stable mood. My baseline seems to be depressed more and more. The whole situation honesty makes me depressed. Can anyone relate?