I feel normal

I’ve been struggling ever since I was diagnosed last year with different components of bipolar, from anxiety to depression to psychosis to medications not working.

I’m set to go back to my job next month after getting medically discharged from the military, and I am so excited to get back into that, but also very nervous about it. I know I can handle it, but the stress is still there.

And even with all of that, I finally am in a rhythm where I feel normal. I’m in a good routine, I’m down from taking 6 different medications to just 2, and I feel great. I don’t even need to take sleeping pills to sleep anymore, which has improved my psyche and my routine immensely. I exercise daily, journal, read, and find that I can function normally.

Comparing that to how I felt while going through psychosis/mania, where I thought the news was reporting on things related to me, people were watching me and I had uncovered a plot by a 3 letter agency to control minds, and feeling normal is a blessing.

TL;DR all of this to say that I hope all of us reach a sense of normalcy, as normal as we can be