Being successful with Bipolar

I am having a surreal moment and I really want to share.

June 2024 I lost my job because of my mental state. I hit an all time low - panic attacks all day long, uncontrollable crying and emotional outbursts, missing work because of my anxiety etc. I had not yet been diagnosed with Bipolar.

I’m bipolar 1 and I have severe misophonia - my manic episodes/outburts caused me to destroy my home. I’ve destroyed expensive dressers, doors and doorframes, tv’s, computer screens, you name it I’ve punched it.

Ever since I’ve done nothing but work incredibly hard on rectifying that behavior and work on my mental health. Went through about 4 different Psych’s - it was a nightmare, I had to change either because of insurance or finding shitty Drs - I did therapy, started a gym regime and prioritized holding myself accountable for my behavior and decisions.

2 & 1/2 months ago I was ready to give up and applied for disability. I didn’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. But one day I pushed myself and applied for a job. I actually got it and debated on if I was capable of holding a job or not. I decided to push myself and do it for my son.

I’ve been working a little over a month as the Medical Assistant at a private clinic. Today I found out I’m being promoted to office manager.

I can’t believe what I’ve accomplished and I’m so insanely proud of myself. I don’t have anyone to share this with because I keep my diagnosis to myself. I’m on about 5 different meds right now so I can’t say this is all my own doing- but I finally feel stable and I’m seeing the best version of myself again.

No need to comment or like - I just really needed somewhere to share this. I hope it gives hope to anyone who is struggling to the extent I was. There is a light at the end of the tunnel if you work towards it. We are capable of so much more than we know.