it's just so frustrating

I'm BP2 & when I cycle back to a major depressive episode I get so frustrated. Like I'm doing all the steps; I'm on meds, I have a psych & therapist, I'm in support groups, and I always think I'm making progress but I end up back here anyways. It makes it feel pointless.

I've stopped talking to my friends/family about it cause I feel like such a burden (a classic one I know lol) cause its the same issue every time. There's no advice they can give me or way to help & I don't wanna treat them like a therapist.

I probably just need to adjust my meds or something. But idk its days like this where I'm stuck in bed crying & feeling like I can barely make this post, let alone do my job or the damn dishes, that I kick myself for. It shouldn't be this hard to take a shower or something.

Anyways, anyone else get stuck in this frame of mind?