I feel so stupid about the tickets I got.

Going to the Cowboy Carter tour was never an option in my mind. I simply don’t have the money. Another thing is that I’m scared of traveling. I’ve never been on a plane, never visited other countries and I wasn’t planning to. But last week my best friend offered to give me money for a ticket and I can pay him back whenever. I disagreed immediately and shut down the conversation.

Today I woke up to an email with the beyhive presale code and I don’t know why I decided to agree to my friend’s offer. I made a ticketmaster account and started waiting. I’m european and I chose the Paris shows. After waiting in the queue, when it was my turn to buy tickets I was presented with three options all titled “Beyonce”. I was confused, clicked on one and chose a seat on the first balcony of the stadium directly in front of the stage. It was a “platinum” ticket for 340 euro. I didn’t have the option to be on the field or near the stage like I wanted.

After I bought it I remembered I wasn’t asked for the beyhive presale code at all. I realized I probably did something wrong. Went back on ticketmaster and clicked on another one of the three options I mentioned. Then finally I was asked for the code and presented with options on the field and near the stage. They were half the price of what I paid for my ticket and exactly where I wanted to be. It was too late though, I already spent the money and those tickets were all sold out.

Seeing Beyoncé live is probably my biggest dream but now I feel stupid. I didn’t grow up with a lot of money so spending this amount is crazy to me already but now I feel like I spent it carelessly and wasted it because I didn’t know what I was doing. This probably seems like bitching to most of you and I guess not many will read this long ass post but I just wanted to vent. I feel like I should have never even thought of doing this and left it as just a dream which will eventually fade.