How do I have fun in BF1?

For the record I suck at combat (48% win ratio) and often times prefer to flee rather than get in combat. I've tried to be medic and support but neither of those are fun enough for me to continue play the game, death causes rage and sadness and I sometimes quit the game entirely, I've even taken long breaks from it yet I still feel a sense of dread when I play BF1. The game still drags me in despite all of this but now I'm starting to regret buying BF1, is there any way to have fun in this game or should I quit? (BTW are there any noob custom servers on PS4 for people like me?).