rest in peace shiloh

i am devastated.

i had to move out of my house from my dad for my own personal safety. whenever i left for a night, my dad always promised to turn off and on his heat lamp, and he did. dad has promised to turn off and on his lamp. i come back 3-4 times a week to make sure my snake and rabbit and fish are okay. i was going to move all my pets in this weekend. every time i have come back, shilohs light wasn’t on. since its been colder, i decided to switch out his light with a heat emitter and let that stay on nonstop, so my dad wouldn’t have to deal with it. as i was changing it today, i found shiloh had passed. i kept trying to wake him up. i asked my dad if he had been turning on the light, because i was thinking shiloh was dead, which he was, and my dad got very defensive and started yelling at me. he said “this is what you get for abandoning your family and your pets”, “it’s your fault you abandoned him, you up and left”, “go get your rabbit, the only good living thing you have left and get the f out of my house”. so i got my rabbit, put shiloh in a box and left. i came home to shilohs enclosure being 62F. i feel like it’s all my fault. i know my dad promised to take care of him on the days that i wouldn’t be there, and i trusted him to do so, but i feel like i should’ve done more. i don’t know what more i could of done though. i wish i had switched out the heat emitter fast enough. i didn’t know this would happen. i feel so guilty. all im looking for is some sympathy. nobody seems to care that he died, because he’s “just a snake” but he was my snake. he was my baby. i raised him from a baby. he shouldn’t have had this ending. he was supposed to live to 30. i loved him so much. they say snakes don’t feel love but i hope he could have at least felt mine towards him. rest in peace shiloh.