I think I’m genuinely a bad person

I feel I am a weird mix between a sweet yet awkward introvert or just a downright heinous individual. I guess both can exist (since they seem to in me) but how do I STOP doing things I know are bad?

It happens in a week ish length period of time and then results in a depressive episode and burnout. Things include- excessive sexual interest in my partner and watching things online, watching more taboo things, and separately, “discounts” in stores. I don’t want to be like this anymore. I have a child and I pride myself in being a really good mom. But I have this like evil side. I need help, my current therapist is not versed in autism, idek if this is related to that. But I’m hoping someone can point me in the right direction till I can get an appointment with a therapist who is.

Edit: reading comments and replying once my lil one goes to bed. “Discount” is 100% Taboo is definitely a kink community but I feel ashamed over it. Grew up religious, haven’t believed since I was about 12.