HIV ANXIETY

Me(Male) had protected sex with an escort trans male (female to male) SW(sex worker)both vaginal and anal (lots of lube) .I'm so scared went and got tested the day after(ik it's too early for results) negative results and prescribed pep. I had to stop taking the medicine because I ended up in the hospital I'm already immunodeficiency and the drugs were too hard on my internal organs. I'm scared shitless and thinking about ending it all because I don't want to die a slow painful death because I can't handle the medicine that's needed and/or I can die of HIV my bday is on new Year's Day and it sucks to think I won't make it past 27 let alone more years after. Can someone please give me some type of closure or perspective I'm terrified