What should I do? For career.

Hi guys. I may not be looking for advice, but u am actually very troubled lately.

Graduated last year, got a job and I am working for almost a year coming soon.

I actually enjoyed my internships (research/lab) but I chose to accept to a production engineer as I want to try different things, even tho I have return offers.

6 months later, I slowly find that this company has a bad culture. And there is no guidance. I am just thrown tasks to do with minimal help.

After the change in HOD, the big big boss is getting more annoying as all he does is for wayang instead of the real job. My boss, even tho he didn't really scolds but he's always blamwppl, which is affecting me secretly. And his instructions aren't clear enough. Really want to quit and after this encounter I know that I will nvr work in the production field.

I am troubled becuz the job market is bad now, and I can't quit without a 2nd job becuz I am poor.

Not really asking for advice, but I actually feel sad/depressed. It seems like my life is just going downhill after 21 (ya, after some failed "relationship" thing). My academics isn't doing well since jc. Even my career now and my financial status also fail ... I do save a lot tho. I know ppl shldnt compare but ya it's just going downhill while my local uni peers are doing ok (?) but of cuz I know, there will be peeps not doing ok. I can't see my future in life and many ppl will say, life is just liddat. I cannot accept.