Alcoholism is destroying me, and i feel so guilty.

I have been struggling with alcohol for some time now, about 20 years. It's gotten worse the last 15. I have 2 DUIs and completely destroyed my marriage. I've been to IP and IOP, more times than I can count. But of all of it, I'm more disgusted at myself lately for one particular thing: it caused me to keep from voting in the 2024 presidential election. I was on a bender, spiraling from depression, and too drunk to vote. I am reminded of this CONSTANTLY since shit hot the fan in January. Every morning I look at the news, and every new and insane thing happening in Amerca reminds me of this. I'm in a swing state. Would my vote for Harris tipped the scales in her favor? Probably not. But it would've been something I could have done to fight this tyrant. I'm not looking for much, I just had to say this somewhere. I feel like I caused this. I'm sorry, America.