Relapsed, Day 4

I've found a huge reason I drink is for social purposes and since I have no friends here in Houston I'm doing double time to try and maintain friends from where I moved from.

Unfortunately I'm not very relaxed socially while sober. I'm considering cutting everyone out of my life just so I don't relapse since being in contact with anyone whatsoever is extremely difficult when sober. It's tough since I love my friends but at the same time they've really only known me when I'm drunk.

There's a degree of shame and embarrassment since I've let myself down but I know that today's mistake doesn't shape tomorrow's future. I don't t believe anyone truly fails until they completely give up.