I feel like I creep women out

My (23F) entire life I have always felt a disconnect between me and other women. Interacting with them feels like I am making them uncomfortable, even when NOTHING indicates that. Sometimes I feel like me just existing around them is gross of me. I try to go above and beyond to make sure they are comfortable (because in my head I feel like a gas station creeper seriously) which usually results in me not interacting with them. I have had female friends, but with most of them I felt like I was pretending to be someone else so I wouldn’t creep them out. I only have a few female friends now, and I noticed the only women I can feel “normal” around are also neurodivergent or very masculine and I don’t see them in person often if at all. I also have always been in closer friendships with men than women. I’m not sure if this is because I was raised like I was a boy by a man, abused by maternal figures, or maybe I am just like socially awkward? It just feels sad to me that I don’t understand how to connect to women. And trust me I do not prefer to be friends with men at all, I love my male friends but I have always wanted to feel a connection with women a lot more. It feels really lonely