Any other lesbians here with OCD?

I mean actual ocd not hahaha omg I’m so cute and quirky I have ocd and am a neat freak hahaha. I mean, actual, often debilitating, ocd.

I’m getting myself into a serious relationship. So far I’ve hidden the reality. But it’s exhausting and I know, in order to be serious, she has to see the darkness. But it’s scary.

And it’s ended relationships and friendships in the past. I don’t want that to happen this time.

I’m hoping for advice, tips, and maybe a little commiseration, cause why our brains gotta be like this? Blech My brain is so mean to me.