sexuality and porn

I am 23 and I’ve been out as lesbian for 2 years. Between the ages 16-20, I thought I was bi. (btw I always knew that I liked women and non-men, even when I was a child. i was just suppressing it) Before I came out as lesbian, I’ve hooked up with a lot of men. My body count consists of more men than women. With that being said, when I’m masturbating I mostly prefer watching heterosexual porn. (not always but mostly) I feel bad about it because I feel like a hypocrite with internalized misogyny. Part of me knows that kinky stuff aren’t always logical (?) Does this make me less of a lesbian? But I don’t have sexual or romantic attraction towards men. or am I still self harming? Actually it’s a topic that needs to be discussed in therapy because I’m aware that there is trauma involved. But still, I wanted to hear what lesbians have to say about this. Thank you and happy pride 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️