Where can I get help?

I've always worked full-time and been able to support my family, but for the first time in my life, I can't. It's a long story but I'm laying in bed at 5:00 a.m. and I'm going to pick up my kids from my ex today to bring them to my house for the week and my fridge is empty. I don't have literally a single dollar to put towards groceries. I've received notice from BC Hydro and I'm sure my power will be cut off while they are here. I don't even know if I will get home with them in my car because my gas tank is so low.

I don't want them to know how bad this has become because I've always been really put together + my kids have always seen me strong and able to overcome everything that comes my way.

My health has become so poor that I've had to go on disability through my work + the process has taken so long. I've completely emptied my bank account waiting for my next cheque. It doesn't come for another 9 days + I won't make it that long.

I've never asked for help in my life, I don't know the services that exist for people like me who are technically employed but in relative poverty. I feel guilty reaching out to anyone, ashamed to go ask for help from organizations, + don't feel entitled either way because there are probably people worse off than me.

I'm so desperate but I don't know how to ask for help or where to even go. Can somebody point me in the right direction? I'm even willing to pay these services back once I get my feet on the ground again, whether it be volunteer service or cash payback. It feels wrong taking, I can only ever borrow.... I feel so lost. Can somebody help me?