I do miss you

And I am sorry. I tried to reach out to you but either you didn't see it or you don't care anymore and I can't even blame you for that because of how I treated you. But why now can I not stop thinking about you and missing you and why so long after we stopped talking. I want to be friends with you but friends never works so idk because we obviously cannot be together again. What do I do? Why do I miss you so much? I don't have your number anymore otherwise I would text you but I just hope you know where ever you are that I miss you. A lot. And that I am so sorry. Hopefully somehow you will see this.