Having true convictions that run counter to societal norms sucks

From the following descriptor, one scenario or another may come to mind. I’m not going to get too specific, but what i will say is holding a belief that sets you apart from basically everyone else is isolating. It subjects you to a constant barrage of self-doubt when you look around and see everyone in the world indulging in something you know in your heart is deeply wrong, and everyone around you from parents to teachers to the government to the whole world is telling you it’s not only okay, it’s normal.

As you continue to grow up in a society that tells you this thing you intuitively know is a horror and a violation against life itself, you watch people partake in it and you realize they’re not doing it because of any defensible moral position - they’re doing it because it’s easy, or profitable. Or both.

How can you, at this point, NOT hate everyone around you? How can you not view with utter disgust and loathing these - what you now see as - criminals and indescribably cruel people around you?

How do continue on day to day in a society built upon the back of horror and suffering? At a certain point it becomes impossible to pretend.

You’re going to have to come clean with what you believe and how you live - and now it’s everyone else’s turn to hate YOU.

You, the outlier, the morally righteous one whose very existence threatens the comfortable, silent hypocrisy of everybody else around you… you, who thinks you’re better than me. Fuck you.

This way of living absolutely sucks. It takes a superhuman amount of compartmentalization to continue living in a world that you know is false, to know that if you were to peel back the curtain even slightly, and show everyone the truth…

..they still wouldn’t care. Because people will always do the easier, more comfortable thing, even if it causes utter misery and a life in hell to other beings.

That’s a hard pill to swallow. Believing in anything unpopular absolutely sucks.