I'm only alive because of my husband

I'll start this with I hate my life. I hate everything about my life. Mentally, emotionally and physically I am done. I hate that I'm unemployed. No matter how many application I put in or how hard I try in interviews, I can't get a job. I hate how dependent I have to be on my husband. He has to take on all the financial responsibilities on his own and I can tell it's taking a toll on him. I hate the state I live in. I live in this state because my husband's family live here and they are close. I'm constantly in a state of depression with how worthless feel. My husband is the only thing keeping me alive. Knowing he doesn't want to be left in this world alone is the only reason I have not ended it all and stopped this constant cycle, but sadly even he won't be enough in the end.