i wish i was male

im not interested into transitioning or anything, i’ll live as women my whole life and be whatever, a tom boy or wtv u call it. But holy do i get put into situations where i know it would’ve been different if i was a man.

Every class it gotta be the men that are loud as shit and the women gotta sit down and laugh and be shy. Im in this online art community right, and when i draw shit no one bats an eye, but when i see this male drawing a girl. “omggg i cant believe a GUY drew this..!” What the actuall fuck, im not saying im better than this guy, actually i am, am i a wall? what are we looking at?

I wish i could date a girl, or anyone as a man. I’d be a good boyfriend. Fuck beauty standards i cannot put up with this
would it be easier if i made friends as a guy? Why the fick is everyone so judgemental? Why do i always see women looking up to men like that? Why is this girl looking me like that but to a guy we good? tf? I lost the 50 50 man. And my teachers be saying sexist bullshit too fuck everyone honestly fuck everyone and fuck society norms

maybe i just perceive men wrong lol, i mean its not all good for u guys, and people always want things that they dont have.

Edit: apologies i was just mad one night and i didnt know reddit was this responsive. i guess i shouldve gave more context. my art community was female dominated, so it maybe would make sense that a guy would be treated differently. I shouldve given a better example. Sorry if i came off as egoistic and childish. Thanks n rest well