I definitely didn’t have a good Saturday as I’d hoped. I need someone to talk to.

I (22M) don’t particularly have the luckiest of dating lives. I’m not going to full history this post is mainly about yesterday as I’m writing this.

This morning when I was scrolling through social media and sometimes I skim through the people that liked a post. I discovered that my ex that cheated on me (and got pregnant to another guy’s baby’s almost 3 years ago) last name has changed… meaning she’s more than likely married. Obviously I didn’t “stalk” her profile but that alone triggered a lot of bad feelings and memories.

Onto the next point, there’s this other girl who I met a few months ago on tinder and things didn’t work out or escalate into a relationship. She initially said she wanted to work on herself and doesn’t want to “ruin our friendship because I’m such a good friend” whilst also telling me yesterday she found someone new which confused and upset me inside.

This last example I honestly don’t know if I’m being petty in how I’m taking this. Later that night, it was one of my best friend’s birthdays and she invited me to go clubbing along with her boyfriend and her group of friends who I’m not really acquainted. My night at first was going pretty good, I decided to let loose enjoy dancing on the floor until eventually I was surrounded by other couples including seeing my friend and her bf make out on the floor. I barely got to hang out with her and I felt lonely. Her friends were pretty set in their own group and didn’t really initiate any effort nor did I because I have a bit of social anxiety.

I felt so uncomfortable and awkward and it’s not like I could tell my friend to get a room on her birthday. I tried to go and dance somewhere else further away to avoid the awkwardness but more and more anxiety built up and I began to feel so alone. Considering how my whole day turned out I don’t have anyone to turn to for comfort. I don’t know what to do.

Please. Also no inappropriate comments. Thank you.