Perfect birthday :)

I thought to myself ki aaj nhi rougi, expectations mar chuki hai but to this extent- I can't, so on my every birthday after turning a teenager OFCOURSE I have to cry, kuch na kuch aisa ho hi jata hai, this time i didn't, i thought chalo kuch toh acha hoga hi, holi bhi hai and stuff but no, my parents had another plans, i thought meri mummy aaj chuti lengi unki job se kyuki papa ki already thi unki ka I am not sure, toh jab mere bhai ne confirm Kiya ki vo jaldi aa rahi hai I was kind of excited ki bahar jayenge ya Ghar pe hi saare time spend karenge but no, unka toh already plan tha, papa aur mere bhai ke sath nana nani ke idhar jaane ka, mujhe nhi jana tha because idk mere andar inti energy nhi thi mentally ki mein itne logo ke beech mein rahu (baki ke family members, mausi and all bhi the udhar already) toh later i asked my mom ki ghar kab tak aaoge, she was like shaam toh ho hi jayegi. I know I sound like a brat at this moment, mujhe bhi laga tha I won't cry this time, aaj nhi rougi, expections hi khatam ho gayi hai, but guess what now I am alone at my house, and yes mujhe abhi pura Ghar saaf karna hai 🤭🤭

Gosh I feel so shitty, i don't even know why, they've already proved ki expectations rakhne se kuch hoga nhi fir bhi mujhe itna Ganda feel kyu hota hai!!! I wish I wasn't this sensitive but I also wish I was with someone who actually prioritize me for once, damn it, aise point pe lagta hai ki kyu hi hu mein idhar, point kya hai, raat ko mar hi Jana chahiye tha.

(Sorry guys, screen dikh nhi Rahi thik se type karte hai, grammer mistake Hui ho toh, my mind is not working properly ig)