Am I the only one ?

Am I the only one who feels like a Soldier who just fought a war but lost and returned with a hell lot of bruises and cuts all throughout his body,who can't breathe properly,who thinks it's him why the war was lost ,it's him why his family is sad,but still just doesn't wanna give and still getting ready for tommorow's battle? Am I the only one with such sleepless nights or are there more ?