Y'll I'm doomed for sure

I’m 18 and have been stuck in NEET prep from last 3 years, even though I don’t want to be a doctor. Today, I asked my mom, What if I don’t pass this time? Her response? Take another drop. It’s not easy to become a doctor.

I tried to be serious about not wanting this anymore, and she just said, “So am I.” That’s when it hit me— blud I’m trapped. They’ve said before, If NEET doesn’t work, do something else,” but that “something else” is just taking another drop somewhere else.(different coaching institute)

Ik you guys may think toh didi drop kyu liya agar doctor nahi banna bro as If I didn't even try to escape this cycle idk man if this continues I may end up doing something stupid.

They wont listen to me if I try to explain myself, and I'll just end up crying instead (cause vo bolenge neet k alawa kya krna hai or yha apna khel khtm ). I’ve skipped every event for this exam, and now I’m beyond drained. Everyone’s like, You’re only 18, just take another drop, (yeah i'll take one soon not because of this exam but)....

I’m done and more like I'm doomer of my own life

Such a depressing post by me sorry y'll if you got frustrated with this rant and thank you for reading