Why not?

My wife leaving me, I lost my job, I have tons of debt, I am couch surfing. My wife verbally, physically and emotionally abused me but I still love her but she filed for divorce. It’s too much, I pray often, I feel like I am losing it. I feel like such a failure, I tried my best in this earth. I made mistakes just like everyone else maybe it’s time to go. I can’t do this. All I ever did was try my best and it’s never enough. This world isn’t meant for me. I hope I don’t wake up.