I don’t know what to do

I am a sixteen year old male who just three weeks ago attempted to take there life, my mom took me to the hospital where I was held for two weeks for stabilization.After I got out I told everyone that I was better and that I was going to be fine but of course I was just lying to them, now just tonight I started to self harm again because I have know idea what to do with myself I don’t want to go back to the hospital because they just keep you in a room 24/7 but I also want to get better I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore and I am not sure why I am posting this maybe it’s for just some ideas for getting better or just to have some kind of comfort knowing that I am telling some people how I am doing. Anything thing can help at this point.