I am a burden and just lost my job.

I’ve always been a burden on others whether that is due to my physical or mental health. It has always bothered me, but now that I am losing my job it’s even worse.

I’m not going to commit suicide because I’m depressed. I’m doing it because of the shame that I feel.

I plan on using a scalpel I have access to and slitting both my left and right carotid and jugular; I’ll apologize for the mess in my note. I don’t feel scared. I feel almost peaceful? I feel none of the anxiety that usually consumes me.

I’ll have regrets for sure. Well, one actually which is not being able to see my daughter grow up. She’s currently one, so she won’t remember me which is a blessing.

Thanks