Will it get better?

I’m tired of living this way. Throughout my adult life, I’ve never experienced a genuine happiness once. Work and personal life are pretty much suck. I rarely have a good night sleep. My body and head feel like burning. I can’t go on like this and yet I can’t afford therapy. I have no one to talk to about this. The only way left is praying to god that he can make it easy for me. :(