I fucked maybe up?
I just slept with a guy I think I could really like, but I feel like I always do too soon since I’m so horny all the time. As soon as I have a crush it starts the daydreaming and imagine him fucking me all the ways. How his big hands will feel running across my skin. How his smile gets my panties wet. We seen each other last weekend and all the vibes were definitely there. He’s really cute and he’s tall and very nice. But the sex was just okay. He had a downward curve to his d so it made things feel a bit awkward inside me. He was good at ducking but wasn’t hitting in the right places. He couldn’t seem to find the rhythm with his hands afterwards either. I think if he just fkd me doggy that would have been the move but he has a trailer and one of those beds that are kinda squished. I feel weird about it, I think if we have more time he can get better but if he doesn’t want me I’m going to have so many regrets. Becauseeee here is the thing, one of his friends, I had seen once before just made out mostly (didn’t have sex) and we chatted pretty casually but for a good while and I thought that had been going somewhere but he kinda ghosted me and broke my heart. But now I regret being so slutty as I’m not sure if me and this guy I slept with are sexually compatible and I might just have burnt my other bridge for sure. I’m feeling like a dirty slut and maybe I did it on purpose. I just want some fucking fireworks, mind blowing, soul-mate sex, is that too much to ask?