Overwhelmed with Guilt.

I know I am doing the right thing for leaving but it feels like something isnt alright, it feels like I have woken up from a dream that was bad. today one of my close friends from scj, contacted checking up on me, He asked me why have I been distant and why have I not been attending education. after I told him why, he quickly blocked me. I think they using him to try to find out where my heart is and mental state so they can know how to spproach me. I feel bad that my relationship with my close friend has to end like this, because of scj, I also dont feel well mentaly, I know what I am doing is right for leaving, but it feels like its going to hurt me and a lot of healthy friendships I built there but again I am excited for my new journey because SCJ made me feel trapped. I feel like I'm regaining my life back but im emotionally and spiritually drained right now.