I’m a perfectionist but fu*k it

As it always happens when I try to do something, I end up saying, ‘Hmm, I could definitely improve this, I absolutely need two more weeks to work on it, then it’ll be ready.’ And those two weeks turn into four, then six, then eight, and by the time I’ve worked on it so much and added so many things, I think, ‘What the hell, this is all wrong, I should just start from scratch, so I can have a clean slate.’

This happened when I was trying to write my book, it happened when I was perfecting my workout routine, it happened when I was about to release my first developer project (which, by the way, I still haven’t published), and it’s happening now as I’m about to release my app (not the one I was talking about earlier).

I told myself there are too many things I still need to improve, bugs to fix, tests to implement, so I’ve delayed it from the 1st of January, which was the release date I set for myself, to February 2st (aka In two days). And today, I’ve spent the whole day thinking about doing it, delaying it once again. I still have so many thoughts spinning in my head telling me that design isn’t perfect, I have no idea how to launch on ProductHunt, I don’t know how to write an email to the users already on the waitlist, and all that crap.

Honestly? I’m not ready, I don’t know anything, absolutely nothing, but you know what? Fuck it, Sunday I’m launching my app. Let the sky fall if it has to. It won’t be perfect, it won’t be the prettiest, it won’t have a launch that’ll attract thousands of users, but fuck it, it’s an idea I’ve put time and sweat into, and once and for all, I want to make it public. As for the rest…well, along the way, I’ll figure out how to move in this insanely complicated world.