results day HAHAHHAHAHA 😃😃

hi yes this is another sec 4 panicking about results day ‼️ to my fellow 07ers, we’re all in this together 😊😊😊

idk if it’s just me but as thursday gets closer I have this growing sense of impending doom lol maybe it’s a sign!! 😭😭 I’m writing this rn bc I’m literally too scared to sleep HAHA WOW !!!

when y’all actually get your results, are y’all planning to look at them immediately? I’m v indecisive on how to do it, like should I just rip out the bandaid and get it over and done with or reveal it slowly idk atp ☹️☹️ on one hand I’m rlly impatient to know but i would also like to live in denial for as long as I can ykwim 

I rmb when I collected my chinese results i didn’t expect to cry but somehow I did lol. this is going to be 10x worse and I’m going to be actually petrified 😃 esp when they go through the stats, I’m pretty sure my anxiety levels will be through the roof :/ 

I literally worked so hard for this exam bro 😭😭😭 according to ypt, in oct I studied 300ish hours with an average of about 10h a day 😵 with all the time I invested, if I do badly ig it means i’m actually stupid HAHHAHA DHJDHDKSNS

 I have such an unrealistic goal too, my dream schools are ej or vj (cop of 6 and 7 kms)  and my prelim l1r5 was 17 😃😃

ik I should stop thinking about it bc I literally can’t do anything about it now but the uncertainty is really scaring me :/ and ik this post was kind of a hehe haha wow I’m in denial! sort of post but it’s been affecting even my sleep and yesterday I was so stressed I think I had some sort of sleep paralysis. it’s at the point that even though I’ve made myself really busy this week on purpose, all I can think about is my results. atp I can’t picture life after getting my results bc they could be anything!!! and I hate how unpredictable that is. and yes I’m that kind of person but I’m really afraid of what people will think of me after finding out my results. my parents will def say sth like oh ‘you tried your best dw’ but ik they’ll secretly be disappointed. and it really sucks esp since I have friends that are genuinely smart and can score without studying, and I REALLY dw this to be a repeat of that. i’m so tired of waiting for the time when my results actually effort I put in. 

yea this was really messy but hope you found this relatable or entertaining or wtv, seriously atb to everyone for results day and hope y’all get into your dream schools 🔥🔥

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